1.8.2002
If you want the picture of the day go here, Wow!. Just look at that. Those people really no how to tweak a computer. Anyways, today was once again pretty good. I hung with Silly Fucking Goose at lunch, and for a bit an old friend PJ. All that was pretty good. I have this class critical skills and I can already tell I am going to have a problem there. I would get it switched but the only thing I can do is switching periods, atleast the class Im in, I know a few people.
I think world lit and comp is going to be my best class. The teacher in there is pretty cool. She has outbursts at times but she is cool none the less. I met a few new people today wich is cool. I also met some people I havent seen awhile that I went to boltz with. Wich was also cool.
I was thinking today, what if my car wheels were Gell. That would be so cool. I mean like hard gell. I could like drive by and pull up to hot chicks and be like "Hey ladys, get in my ride", and they would reply with "No, your a weird kid, get out of here". It would still be cool though becuase then I could drive off thinking how cool it was that hot chicks actually noticed me.
The song of hte moment is Tool-Forty Six and Two. The bass in this song is amazing.
1.7.2001
That picture goes out to suger nose and her veggie powers. Some person had way to much time on there hands.
Today was my first day of Highschool. It was pretty good. Im really excited. All my classes are gonna be easy as shit. I saw some long lost friends. I went to lunch with Gareth, Jacob, Chris, and Mr. Jackson. Taco Bell is really good sometimes. But that day it was kinda gross.
I just got done watching the movie Final Fantasy. I have already seen it but it is such a good movie. Serioulsy it has a big concept of my sort of "reliogen".
The song of hte moment is Thin Lizzie-Boys are Back in Town. Its honor of me becuase Ladys and Gentlemen Fanny is back. No trash can is safe in the walls of rocky mountain High.
WHat kind of a froot am I?
1.6.2002
Look at that. Its hard to get your mind to think that there are planets revolving around each thing of light there too. Thats just a very small thing of space. It blows your mind to a bungalow.
I had a pretty good day. I met up with a sugar nose wich was good becuase I havent seen her in a long time. I remember laying underneath a table with her in class. That sounds sexual but its not. Anyways It was a very good time. THat was problay one of the worst classes I had all year but I met her so it was also one of the best. We all went to old town and then went to Beajos or how ever you spell and ordered a pizza. It was really good. Then we went back with Jensen and drove around for awhile and listened to music. Good time.
Tomorrow is my first day of school in a long ass time. Im pretty fucking nervous for some reaoson but oh well. Im gonna be with some awsome people so its all cool. Im just gonna list people that enjoy the company of, or that had an affect on my life. Why i dont know but im gonna.
Jarrett
Gareth
Justin
Trevor
Grant
Jensen
Eathen
Q
Katie
Becky
Brian
J-fucking rod
Sean
Aaren
Jacob
PJ
Nick
Nick2
Amy
Alesha
Jamie
Matt
Lance
Rachel
There are problay more i just cant think of them. I just like want them to know that im glad there around.
1.5.2002
That is such a good picture. I swear thats how it feels when you kiss. Anyways, I had one of the worst greatest nights of my life. There was a sing along again at G's house but this time we had the addition of Silly Fucking Goose. Every person I have known has warned me in some way about her. I cant see it. Every instinct in my body tells me that she is my water, and my air. I dont know what to do anymore about that. Anyways we had some singing and some wrestling, and some dancing. Then after everybody left it was just my best friend, her, and the sound of nothing. Just us sitting there talking of memorys and things. There has never been any other two people that I have ever felt so close too.
G is my best friend. No doubt about it. I would stand down armys for him. I sound like a fag but whatever, hes the one person that im always going to be able to ask for advice. There are alot of people out there who dont have this at all. There are people out there who dont have the slightest clue what im talking about. Now becuase me and him spend one night with a femal we get ass raped. Now we cant hang out and it seems to be that way for ahwile. Thats total shit, its not like we had a fucking orgy or something. Parents are so stupid. This is going to be pretty tough for me.
I feel like im flying right now. Im a stupid foolish man in love. My head is in the clouds like it has never been, and my throat hurts so much. My chest feels like its going to rip out my mouth and its epecenter is my throat. I love her so much and thats all I have to say about that.
Weezer-Jamie gos out to you again Silly Fucking Goose. God I love you so much.
1.4.2002
Finally I get to update my fucking website. My computer has been on the fritz for awhile now. Look at that picture. THat is what snowboarding is all about. I just went yesterday and Ill tell you what it was fun. There was powder everywhere, and fanny was in the air. Well a little, Its really hard not to get all sketchy.
Its the new year now. Its weird alot of the times older movies would make dates like 2010 or whatever, and the time would be totally diffrent. Infact in the movie Back to The Future they go to year 1997 and theres flying cars and shit. It just shows that time is relevent to were you are at the moment.
Me and Q went to a mormon gathering the other day. It was fine, mainly because mcnulty was there. We started playing hide and seek, and I found the best fucking hiding spot. Eveyone walked by me like 10 times and they still dident see me. Mcnulty went off with some other college guy for the rest of the night. Well me and Q sat at the steps looking at all the weird people there. I was wearing my trusty tool hoodie and I here this voice, "tool is the anti-christ". I have had so many comments about things like this. I dont care if the guy was just kidding. There are to many blind relioges people out there who actually talk like this. So I had an arguement with him and schooled his bitch self, and when I was done he siad he listens to tool also. This probaly is funny in some way, I was just really mad at the moment and I couldent find myself to laugh. Thats a pretty big deal considering the word "bungalow" almost brings me to my knees.
Right now im listening to Staind-epiphany. This is in my opinoin there best song. To most of there music sounds pretty much the same, but this one is different.This song goes out to Fanny himself. Becuase your whole life is an epiphany.
12.30.2001
Look at that thing. Its hard to imagine how powerful of a feeling can come from that. Enough to make a person cry, lie, cheat, steal, love, hate, betray. All from that thing that pumps your blood threw out your body. Its weird when ever a strong emotion comes, you feel it in your heart. Theres no proof that feelings exist. Some people think we all just strive from instinct and the will to live and reproduce, but it seems like so much more then that.
Anyways, I just saw this chick jogging by my house. Now first off it just got done snowing. She was so hot. Im not trying to sound like I was spying on her or something but I couldent help it. Her shotrs were shorter then my underwear. It just got me thinking. Girls always were that shit but they get pissed when you look at them. They dident buy a fucking mini skirt thinking "oh this will make it so guys wont look at me".
I was at the movies with SFG yesterday. It was good accept she got way to caught up in the movie. Oh well it just showed her spirt more. Anwyas I was sitting on this trash can and I started looking out side and tipped over. Its not that big of a deal shit like that happens to me all the time it just made me realize I am such a clutz. I dont think a day goes by were I trip or knock something over, or get assraped in some way. Im the most ungraceful person I have ever met, and I wouldent have it any other way.
THe song of the moment is Semisonic-Secret Smile. Im thinking about trying to take a piss from out side my bathroom into the toilet. This should be fun.
12.28.2001
Sorry I have been slacking on the posting. THat girl up there is Tara Dakides. She is one of the best snowboarders. Plus she is fucking hot. I have been browsing the internet and I read up on this articles about her and she just seems like a nice person.
I went and saw mcnulty today wich was good. Im gonna try and get a hold of J-rod but he is always killing animals or working. Or killing animals at work.
I was also with sally today as well. I havent seen him in a long time. He turned over and asked me if I liked katie. Ofcourse I like her. Why would I be at her house if I dident like her? This isent even something to get mad about it just made me wonder. He always calls me his bestfriend but sometimes I wonder if he sees me. I dont really care hes fun to hang around with, but I was just thinking how many other people are like that with me.
My year book is filled with comments like "your so funny" or, "Your a weird kid fanning". Maybe Im funny maybe Im not. I dont usually try to be. Comedy is like my mask. Accept I dident put it on, soiciety did.
Im just gonna leave off on the song of the moment.
Incubus-Wish you were here.
12.26.2001
God that is my favorite organ. I was thinking today, Sex is a plague. Its plague that infects every human. Think about how different this world would be if we dident have orgasms. I wish I had the will power to chop off my goods. Im talking crazy, Sex is way cool but it was just a thought of the moment.
I met Mcnulty today. Wich had its positives and negatives. We phone sleeped the night before wich was great. Listen to me, im talking about phone sleeping. It was just so great.
Tonight it seems I am all alone. Im getting sad just thinking that. The song of the moment is A perfect Cirle-3 Libras. I know I have siad this before but I love this song. Its so good. That guy is the lead singer of tool also and he has such emotion and pain in his voice it almost makes me cry. The thing about tool that people dont understand, is aside from being hard core, that pain that he talks about came from somewhere. I had a person ask me once why they sing like that. I siad "to show people that there is suffering that they arent even aware existed".
Once again this lyrics arent amazing but his voice says so much.
gisn
threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back a name in your recollection
down among a million same
difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over when i've looked right through
to see you naked
but oblivious and you don't see me
but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind
the eyes of a fallen angel eyes of a tragedy
here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded
but i see see through it all see through and see you
cause i threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel eyes of a tragedy
oh well oh well apparently nothing
apparently nothing at all
you don't see me
you don't see me at all
12.24.2001
I lived in South Dakota almost all my life and I had never seen any pictures of that. Probaly the only pretty place in that wastland and I never saw it.
Im in such a good mood. Christmas has no affect on it either. I saw the greatest movie last night. Lord of the Rings was so good. I cant wait tell the next one. The author of the books J.R Tolkien is amazing. There are dictonarys just for those four books that he wrote. There are whole languages set up. The movie and the book, have such good symbolism of good and evil.
Tomorrow is christmas wich is good. I just thought I would post something.
Merry whatever world.
12.21.2001
God that picture is funny. Why the fuck does that turtle have horns. How lovley. Yesterday was pretty cool indeed. I went to school and got my schedule, and my student ID. Holy shit is that a bad picture. I fucking love it.
Me and Mcnulty went to G's house wich was cool and then we went to mcdonalds. There was this guy there that picked up Mcnutlys coat and said "its nice that you have a good man like me to pick up your coat". Then he looked at me and siad "Is that your boy?". Katie nodded yes and hes like "good good, hes a nice looking man". This whole thing was just weird. First of all why did I get the impression that this middle aged man was hitting on my Silly Fucking Goose? God im getting paranoid. He is just some stupid old guy and I couldent help but think him and Mcnutly were going to move to the Hawaii and start a turtle racing buisness. So I mentally slapped myself, and shutup about it, but still im all fucking paranoid about stupid shit. Im just going to stop worrying about it.
After that, Katie chased geese and made weird noises that apparent was meant to scare the geese, but really she ended up kinda scaring me. Just kidding SFG.
The Sing along was great. We played hard core Jewish games and then sang. I cant help but think sometimes we actually sound good when we sing. Then I realize that were all a bunch of losers in a basement on a Friday night singing. Talk about memorys.
When I got home my dad comes up to me and says, "I saw you, Grant, and some black chick today". He siad it exactly like that. I was so mad. The fact that Katie happens to be black never even crossed my mind. That on the other hand was the first thing he noticed. So I just straight up siad to him "you need to try and see out side the box sometime its a great thing". I dont know if I have ever felt so good about a comeback in my life. I felt so proud of myself. Afterwards he yelled at me for about a half hour and I just sat there with a sort of smirk on my face.
Anyways the song of the moment goes out to Eathen. Ween-Falling in love. God this song is so creepy. Wholy shit Im going to shut it off.
12.20.2001
Right now im fucking freezing. Its one of those things were you just got out of bed and its actually not cold but your body is. I phone sleeped with SFG last night and its like 5:00 am right now. Shes in the shower and I just remembered I hadent updated in awhile so I thought I should. Today is going to be a good day. Its already a good day because basically I just woke up to a person who seems to understand me, and I understand her. And for once we actually like eachother. I just woke right next to her on the phone. Most girls dont even want to talk to me for five minutes let alone 12 hours. Im just happy. My life finally seems to be picking up. Even if it isent I dont really care. As long if she is still there.
Yesterday was total bullshit. I havent had such a bad day in a long time. I had to go to old town to turn in this final thing and get this paper saying I passed. Well first I had to skate all the way down wich is gay in itself. Then when I got there she is like I will need your Social Security card and all this other bullshit. She just like assumed I would bring it. What the fuck? So I had to skate all the way back and get it. On the last stretch of road to my house im going and im already pissed and then the truck on my skate boardturns complety sidways well im moving and I go flying forward. My hands smack the ground, and I sit there for a bit and realize that If god does exist he seems to have the urge to spit in my face thats basically what just happened. So I get up I go to my house. I was thinking I was just gonna call my mom and have her give me a ride but when I pick up the phone its fucking just shut off. For no reason. So I sit down and fix the skateboard. Then I go get some stuff off my computer, and put it on a floppy. Little did I know I would have to spend a half hour flirting with my computer before I could do anything. So I get that fixed and im on my way. I get to almost the exact same spot were I had fell before and my skate doesent again and I fall the exact same way. I was about ready to go fucking crazy. I some how find some ounce of relaxation and I calmed down and got on a bus. I figured this would go to csu wich is somewhat near this school and I could take a bus there. WEll the bus takes a fucking hour as it is and when I get to CSU all the other buses are closed down. Its 4:00 the school is closed, my family isent home. I have a broken skateboard. and a shitload of papers, and I just gently walk home. I get home my phone is working I call SFG and forget about it. She is the perfect drug.
The song of the moment goes out to her and its Incubus-Steller.
12.18.2001
I thought with the addition of hot chicks I would add the only other thing that I would have sex with. Believe me I have better luck with the guitar.
Last night was pretty cool. The Choir did really good. Same with the band. I usually hate those type of gatherings but this one was cool. SFG was the only one that seemed to sing with soul. So everyody give her a peach or a congradualtions on a job well done. Today I went to spotlight with Trevor and had a good time. Its so awsome just going to a place like that. They have so many guitars its like fucking heaven. For those of you that arent guitar players, its like having a whole room full of hot chicks.
Im actually going to school at the semester. Im so happy. I miss alot of people. Hell I miss homework. I know that sounds dumb but it sucks not having a life. Highschool is gonna be great. I get to spend the next three years with some amazing people. Here we go bitches.
The song of the moment goes out to Sugar Nose, Greenday-Nice Guys finish Last.
The
12.17.2001
That picture brings back memories of the food gallery. For those of you that dont know one of my first websites was just strictly pictures of food. What a good time.
Today im gonna go over to Jarrotts for a lovely jam and then were going to go watch SFG vibrate her vocal chords. Should be a good time.
People are posting in the forum so that is good. Eveyone keep it up. That sounds like something a stupid teacher would say. "Come on kids everybody do homework". Teachers are such weird people. There are two typed of peope in this world, normal, and teachers. Why the fuck do they smile at you when they give you a detention? Where do they get all those fruity objects that they put on there desk? Same thing with clothes? They always complain about how hard there job is, well why did they do it? They knew how much teachers sucked when they were kids why dont they try and be different? I do respect teachers, and im glad they are there but they dont have to be so wacky.
The song of the moment is Better the Ezra-running threw the wet grass. Lovely song. Simply Lovely.
12.16.2001
Today was pretty boring. I have been sick wich is just a bunch of bull fucking smack. Everyone from the sing along seems to have gotten it to. It was probaly becuase we were doing something relioges and we got fucked. I have been talking to SFG alot lately so thats good. Im sick and I can still somehow find the chance to be happy.
I have no idea what I want for christmas. There is this Tool Hoodie that looks fucking cool. The only other thing is a playstation 2 and I would get bored with that becuase I dont really play many video games. I have on the other hand played this game called Grand Theft Auto 3. That game is insane. Your like a fucking real person and you just go around and shoot people,steal there cars, run from the cops, and then run them over. Its pure violence but I guess thats why it makes it fun. ITs just a weird concept we sit down and we simulate killing people. Whatever Its fun. Im not going to deny it.
The song of the moment is Weezer-My Name is Jonas. This is a such a good song. ITs one of those make you feel good songs when you feel like shit.
Post in the forum
12.15.2001
God I fucking love the addition of hot chicks. Personally I think that chick looks like the biggest bitch in the world. Would I still have sex with her? HELL YES.
Right now Im sick as fuck. I guess I just had to much singing at last nights sing along. One of my friends Eathen is jewish and he happened to have his handy dradle and Manora. So we played dradel with m&ms.It was a friday night and we were the only losers at home playing dradle and singing. The forum better not be going threw another dormant stage. Post in the forum you bitch. I get a fucking porno add from icq every five minutes. Not that im complaining its just to many people are in to that. To tell you the truth porn isent really all that exciting to me. Great a picture of boobs, Who cares?
Im actually lieing I fucking love boobs.
I have descided that im doomed to be fucked in the bitch department. It seems that over and over again the same fucking story. And im sick of it. So im not going to worry about it anymore. It seems the people in this world that get all the action are the ones who dont care and maybe thats what I should do. Im sick of using my heart. All it does is get shattered. Im just going to start thinking with my fucking dick, atleast if that doesent work, it can be satisfied by other activities. Im starting to get the idea that a relationship lasts by how well you can ignore your partners faults.
12.13.2001
First off I have recieved atleast ten letters of hate mail and insults from different people. Apparently not to many people approved the addition of hot chicks. Well I refuse to take down the addition of hot chicks. I just wont make it as attractive as the picture below.
I have spent all day thinking. I remember attending mass at my catholic church in the town I used to live in. I remember how much I hated it. I never understood why I needed to go some place so other people could tell me how to pray. I remember putting on fucking itchy clothes and getting all prepared. I felt so much more "in touch" outside by myself then I did in some stupid old church.
Im so confused right now. I have been researching different topics every week. Well this weeks topic I descided would be christianity. First I went and looked at the history of christianity. So many people have died under that symbol above. So many people have used it as a crutch, an exscuse, an answer, a question. So many people have got there life together underneath it. So many have become happy. So many developed love and hate. So how could that stupid cross be so powerful? Then I realized its not the cross. Its not Jesus, its not Buddha, its not Muhammad. Its not the direction you pray too. Its not the day you celibrate and the days you dont, its not the distances you travel or dont travel.
Its love. Your savior is love. Your god is love. You are love. How could it be more clear then that? How could it be more blurry then that? Its so hard to think right now. I feel so alive. I have always thought this but I never realized it.
I am being to philosophical for my own good right now. The song of the moment is POD-alive.
12.12.2001
Believe me im liking the addition of hot chicks but I refuse for this place to be clacafied as porno. But to all you guys out there how do you like that pick? Eh eh?
Yesterday was ok. I went over to Justins and hooked him up with a whole in the internet for his mountain boarding fetish. I had to fucking blackmale him to give me a link. Anyways I have about five projucts going on were im making someone else a website. I dont really care becuase it ends up helping me but sometimes it can be a big bitch. Lately I have been playing the guitar and some of my fingers will start bleeding. Im fucking hard core.
I woke up this morning and snow was falling. Talk about badass. If it snows a little more perhaps I could get that jump at my park back in action. My Cd Burner seems to be going threw a selctive phase. It only works every other day wich is not what a fanny likes. So Im thinking about getting a new one of those. My next purchase though is going to be a webcam. Then maybe a host that will let me use a webcam. Oh by the way there is some action going on in the forum. It took a three week dormant period but its back now.
The song of the moment is Hey Jealousy-Gin Blossoms. The Gin blossoms can fit about any feeling to match how your heart feels. That sounds like something a loser like me would say.
12.11.2001
Ive descided that along with weird ass pictures im going to add the addition of hot chicks.
Im feel pretty good right now. Later im going to go over to Justins to make a website for his mountain boarding fetish needs. I tried baking another Cake today but it messed. Up I was gonna give it to a Chick but now I guess ill just have to go back to my original idea. An orgasm.
I had a flash back of a memory with my grandpa last night. Anyways I was thinking about the person he was. I remember growing up I really strived for his respect. Good grades, being Athletic just doing anything I could, and I never got it. He died like two years ago and I was just thinking that really I failed him. Its to late now. The point of this story is I wonder if he knew how much pressure he put on me. Even now that hes dead I still feel like I dident add up to his expectations.
So this lead me to other thoughts. I never want my son to think that he has to impress me. Im always gonna be on his side, so when I do die he wont have to live in this state of wondering what he could of done different.
The song of the moment is Gin Blossoms-Found out about You.
12.10.2001
That picture is a good comparison. Anyways, about an hour ago I felt like destroying things. I went to meet with the District Attorny about the whole nude fanny thing. She told me that I would have to sign up on a list as a person who was charged with a sexual offense. So basically the whole reason for my fucking counsler and all that shit that has made my life for the past few months miserable was for nothing.
As I was reading the report of what my counsler a thought ran threw my head. Think of all the people like me who were just kidding. Who just made a mistake and now there lives are ruined. My life isent ruined but I was lucky. Its still not over. I have descided im just going to bring it to a trial. I really have nothing to lose and I could get this whole thing dropped.
As I was walking out of the building I saw Amber of all people. This isent ment as an insult twards her but it was like god was spitting in my face. I was just about ready to go ape shit and then I thought of something, im gonna come home and call SFG. I can always come home and call her its just a good feeling to have that stability.
12.10.2001
That is such a good painting. Thats by Salvador Dali if you havent heard of him you can check him out here.
Well ladies and Gentlemen I have taken a giant step to becoming a man. Last night I phone sleeped the whole night with Mcnulty. Im no longer a virgin phone sleeper. Enough of that.
My whole house smells like the woods. We just got or christmas tree and I have already been impailed by needles. Were did the concept of christmas come from? I mean it never says any where in the bible that "thou shall chop down trees and put them in your house and then go out and support major buisness and give people who dont deserve gifts gifts."
The song of the moment is Greenday-When I come around. This is a really good song. It was one of the first songs that got me into Greenday.
12.9.2001
Look at that froot. That is probaly the weirdest fuck head I have ever seen.
I met up with Jarrot and a new partner Umber. Anyways we went to this concert wich was swift. The guitar player for this band Voices in the Mirror is probaly the most amazing person I have ever heard. Everyone else in that band fucking ripped. I cant wait tell thats me. If it is ever me but still I can hope.
Im in one of those moods were a confusion is my best friend and lonleyness is his butt partner. Mcnulty looked like the most amazing women. Thats understatement. So put those three sentences together and you will get why I feel confusion and lonelyness are getting it on right next to me.
The song of the moment is A perfect Circle-3 Libras. I dont know why the name is but this song fits anyone who has ever been missunderstood. Suger Nose I feel like talking to you call me.This ho bag is out.
12.7.2001
People are actually that stupid. Last night I had a reunion with Suger Nose and G. It was pretty cool accept my fucking parents wouldent answer the phone so I just spent the night at Gs house. What a bunch of bitches.
I have been noticing something. I havent been eating. I know that sounds weird. Its not like I dont have food or anything just I havent even thought about it. I have on the other hand been working out. Im getting there it just doesent seem to be in big steps. It seems people have forgotten of my forum. Oh well there was really only one person in there that I actually enjoyed listening too. I saw an old ex-girlfriend last night. The names Rae. I havent seen her in like 4 months and then when I finally do see her she says "I have to go". Whatever. Shes one of those chicks were I should of got to known her before I asked her out. Something that I should of probaly done with all my fucking ex-bitches.
The song of the moment is Stone Temple Pilots-hollowood Bitch. This song fits so many women out there. That was mean but its true.
12.5.2001
I dont know what job would ever have you do that. What would affect you doing your job by how your fucking arm pits smell? My life is going down hill but I feel great. Really GREAT!!! More on that later.
Im thinking about getting a webcam. First though I need to get some good hosting. I have so many plans for this site but there held back by fucking freeservers. Maybe I should start paying for this bitch whole. We were suppost to have a reunion today but Suger nose was M.I.A. I did end up meeting with G and we went down and got a guitar string. Its going to be nice to have another partner to jam with. No one has posted in the fucking forum for two days strait now. Its probaly though becuase I have gotten in fights or something with all of the peope who used to post there and peoples internet are down. I still cant believe that AT&t went down the bitch pipe. I cant wait tell I get my license. Im gonna go buck wild.
The song of the moment is Greenday-Basket Case. This song fits me alot. There are only a few select people out there that are either the weird ones or the normal ones. Some people just dont get it.
12.4.2001
That picture is way to long but whatever. My life has been sort of gay lately but it has also been amazing. Things are falling apart all around me and im happy as a chinese clam. Im not gonna go into specifics becuase im not sure yet but its great news. I just got back from one of the worst jams ever. I know why it sucked but whatever Jammin is Jammin and I like it just for that.
I am so sick of my dad. Im not even talking to him right now. We both just avoid eachother. Wich is good. Hes been reduced to a ghost that lives in my house. Wich is soon going to change. Later he is gonna be a ghost that sends my money from time to time. We live in weird world ladys and gentlemen. Oh well.....
The song of the moment is Bob Marly-Redemption Song. This guy knew what it was about. Yeah he was a stoner but whatever. If that what it took to make him see life so peacefully then im for getting stoned off your ass. Maybe im just some stupid hippie like I have been told before but I know I feel peaceful so im happy....
12.3.2001
Well another set of fucking weird people to add to my collection. Today was pretty typical. I went to the DMV and got another copie of the Drivers manual. This thing is basic and stupid but its filled with a mound of stupid facts that I know I am going to forget on the test. G and Jensen stopped over to see if they could get drivers for the 56k modems so maybe they could have some access to the internet. I saw this pictures of me and I dont know if it was my computer but they were fucking disgusting. Lol that was a little vague so probaly all these disgusting thoughts are running threw your mind. I like that and am going to keep it that way.
I just got done pulling myself together becuase I was fucking crying becuase of a stupid movie. I have seen the movie before it was just really sad. American History X wich I have mentioned about ten times in the forum already but it is a really good movie and you should see it if you havent already. Anyways the point of this blabber is I have been thinking about the last time I actually cried. Its been along time. Me being a guy crying just always seemed kind of stupid to me. Its not like it solves the problem. In a sense though it makes you feel human. Sometimes its hard for me not to feel like a fucking robot but whenever I let my emotions out like I had just did I feel a sort of reminder that I actually have a heart. This is so stupid and I cant believe im saying this. Im going to shutup before I lose some visitors to this Bitch Session.
The song of the moment is Stone Temple Pilots-Lady Picture Show.
12.2.2001
God there are some fucking weird people out there. What the hell is that in his mouth? Today was kinda gay. I got in this huge fight with my dad and he descided it would be a good idea to get physical so he came at me and I just yelled at him. "Im like what are you gonna do? After you hit me im just going to get right back up. Your going to hit someone who is half your size." Then he got right in my face and I punched him in his throat. What the fuck? What a bastard. I shouldent have to put up with that shit. Right then my mom came down stairs and he left. I dont know were he is and I dont give a fuck. I cant wait when I grow up. No matter whatever my life status is Ill still be a bigger man then he is. I definatly will treat my son better. Its so pathetic people like him. The person I feel the worst about though is my mom. Anyways I had to get out of the house quick. So G called me and Jensen came and picked us up. We went sledding and ofcourse they have fanny do all the bullshit stuff. So we set up this tables and I ride off them and land flat on my ass. It hurt alot but we got some nice pics so its worth it. Ill put those up when I get them.
On other news At&t declared bankruptcy so everyone with a cable modem is down. So right now the only people online are people with a DSL or 56K.
The song of the moment is Oasis-Dont go away. This is a really good song. For some reason it reminds me of Miss. Silly fucking Goose. I dont know. I need a can of peanut butter and a live rooster. If only I had a rooster......
12.1.2001
Look at the freak. That is such a creepy person. Im not using a sex becuase I dont know what sex it is. Anyways, I had an awsome day of snowboarding. I halled balls and I can tell that I am definatly improving from that Fatass on the slopes last year. Jensen was a lovely driver and same goes for his squezze. Compliments to you Jent compliments to you. I had to say that twice.
It looks as though another week of bullhocky is coming up but im kinda used to it. Perhaps one of the days I can meet up with Silly Fucking Goose. Also a possible reunion with Suger nose and a tale of her long trip down at the border.
I would usually be disgusted by people talking about this but what can I say. Im pretty disgusting. My hair is getting longer then a Water Buffalo addicted to rogain. Im going to let it grow though. I want to see how it looks long. For now my hair is in this "On The FRITZ" stage where I am forced to wear a Beanie. The song of the moment is Blues Traveler-Mountains win again. This song was perfect on the last run today. I had my discman and it felt like I was in heaven. Snowboarding is so relaxing. Just being up in a place so pure. The mountains are so amazing and I wish people wouldent take them for granted so much.
11.28.2001
I cant imagine how much that would hurt. Anyways today was sort of weird. I went to that counsling session for hopefully one of the last times. Anyways im not a fucking pervert but she did say something sort of weird. I guess I show signs of being clinicaly depressed and perhaps even manic. Now personaly I think all that stuff is bullshit. What people dont realize is that everyone has some form of depression. Everyone has some crippling thing that makes it hard to get out of bed. Its just some people can see it better then others. Im not going to preach about this becuase I dont believe in it. Im a pretty strong person (I hope) and I can cope. That rhimed and you all know how I feel about rhimes.
I just got bit by a fucking spider. Why the hell is there even a spider still alive in this time of year, and why the fuck did it bite me? Well that sucka just payed with his life. Hopefully I can get up snowboarding this weekend with Jensen.
The song of the Moment is Bush-Chemicals Between us. This song is really good. I recomend it to midgets and Karatie masters allike. I wish I was a Karatie master. On a side note, I learned how to play the intro to led zepplin over the hills and far away. I remember when I first heard this song I siad "when I can play this im a good guitar player." Well I learned but I still dont feel like im good. Thats the thing about guitar or any musical intrument you can always learn more. There is always more too it. Even Jimi Hendrix could go on and he was by far the best.
11.27.2001
Look at that picture. Thats me in a couple years. Anyways life lately has been a sort of butt fuck. My mood has been changing like sessemee street on shrooms. I dont know its like one day im a horny bumble bee then the next im a horny loser who only has his computer and guitar to exchange feelings with. Sometimes I wonder if people even read this site. I dont really care. I write this sort of "online diary" for myself not to please the veiwers with commical humor and blow jobs. Aangel is back from her long trip down south. No I dont mean hell. Most of you wont get that joke.
One thing that has been going good lately is this song that me and Jarrett are working on. This thing is going to sound sweet if we can get it together. Right now the song of the moment is Rage against the Machine-Born of a Broken man. This is a new band that I have grown to like. There the only band that can rap and be good. There lyrics are decent and the base, guitar, and drums are awsome. People are posting in the forum and thats good but you people should make a topic of your own. Just ask a question or insult someone or something.
11.25.2001
Isent that a lovely picture? I wrote a crazy poem in my forum perhaps you could check it out. I mainly just want you to go to the forum so what are you waiting for? Today it snowed quite a bit wich makes me eroused. I cant help but think of snowboarding. Im gonna try and get up this week. Hopefully I can. I went to epic today and swam. It was pretty refreshing. I swam a shit load of laps. Im kinda tired right now and cant think of anything to say. So the song of the moment is 311-come original. For some reason this song reminds me of the early ninetys. Maybe becuase thats when it came out. Or is it??
11.24.2001
I put archived and put all the old news in the Old Jabber Section. It was taking a little to long to load and I have fast internet so I wanted to make it easier for you foke. Im so caring. The forum is going smoothly, I havent wacked it in three days, my life is probaly still going down hill, and I really want to go snowboarding.
Im incredibly tired. Last night me, G, and other folk stayed up tell about 3:00 am singing our hearts out. Instead of going to partys and getting layed my group of friends stay up and sing like we have good voices. It was a good time. Suger Nose seemed to desapear of the face of the earth so I dont know where she is. If you read this Ms. Suger nose maybe you call me. Right now I feel like going on a quick romp. Maybe in the woods or a some sort of a barn.
